Now What?

In the last blog post, I talked about how change can be uncomfortable. The changes I have experienced over the last couple of weeks have definitely given me a run for my money. To be honest, these changes have made life seem pretty unbearable. These changes haven’t just given me a run for my money. These changes have bankrupt me mentally and emotionally! And it’s really difficult to have insufficient funds in your mental and emotional bank when people rely on you mentally and emotionally. I’m a therapist, business owner, wife, friend, sister, etc. I have things to do and people to see. I have been constantly going back and forth in my mind that I have no idea how I’m going to be able to bounce back from all this. And that’s when it hit me, there was no bouncing back. My life has been forever changed, and things will never be the same again. This realization sent me even further and deeper into the grief and depression that I was experiencing. Now, I know what you’re thinking. I shouldn’t be thinking this way. I should have faith and believe in God for the impossible because he is a miracle worker and a way maker. While that is correct, I’ve come to find out that I can’t accept God for all that He is and all that He can do without first admitting that I have a problem I need for him to solve. Look at my therapist spirit tapping in! As a clinician, I cannot help someone who doesn’t think they need help. In order for my skills and interventions to be effective, the person on the other end has to recognize and accept that they have an issue and are in need of treatment. So, here I am surrendering everything that I have to God. I have a problem. I’m going through the worst pain that I have ever experienced in my life. My faith is taking a huge hit as well as my mental and emotional well being. And I don’t know how to go on with my life feelling the way that I’m feeling. Now what…? Now I have created space for God’s goodness to come into my life! Sometimes we get so wrapped up in finding the positives and looking at the bright side of situations that we don’t make room for God to show up and show out! Admitting that you have a problem or admitting that a situation is worse than you realize isn’t being negative. It’s accepting reality or a concept that we call radical acceptance in the field of therapy. You can’t believe God for the impossible until you accept what is possible! Therefore, I’ve seen what man can do, and now I am putting my faith in God for the unexpected to happen. I’ve created this “therapeutic relationship” with God where He is the clinician, and I am the client. I’m going to follow through with the skills, interventions, and coping mechanisms that He provides me. However, I will only be as good as I allow myself to be. Just like in my therapy sessions with others, I can provide the resources all day long, but if the other person doesn’t put them to good use, then they aren’t getting the full benefit of the healing process. I’m taking full advantage of this process! I don’t know what each and every day will bring, but I do know that I’m going to put my best foot forward. I’m going to figure this out, and I’m going to be okay again. God will definitely make sure of that. #radicalacceptance #faith #mentalhealth